WARNING, this is one of my complaining rants please do not read if:
-can't stand mindless ramblings about how unfair everything is
- dislike imperfect grammar
MOOD - APATHETIC/IMPASSIVE
(I love those words)
Firstly, here i am now back from china and survived a damn well stupid hard ass week of school. School drags on for freaking ages, I swear in class i just watch the clock. THE HECK THATS WHAT I ONLY GET TO DO AT HOME @.@. Sorry sudden realisation of how bored I am (more of this later).
Back on track in China I discovered and experienced a variety of differents things, although not all of them good e.g. Thanks to China's hygiene my skin is all dried and itchy, For all 18 days I was there I had to sleep in the same bed as my sister and everynight there were constant fighting and it was worse when she was unconcious. She slept talk and took all the qulit ( Did I mention it's Winter there). Seriously sometimes I just wanted one of us to jump from our window ( Lived on the 9th storey building with no acess to ELEVATORS try tugging 90kg of luggage down!!). Oh, and Guangzhou has very poor hygiene, I mean disgustingly poor, streets are filled with rubbish and chemicals from factories, Toilets are HORRIFIC, No blue skies & water = dirty muddy water. They kill animals infront of your eyes, although i heard about this, I couldn't cope with the TERRIBLE conditions they were living in. Cages were overfilled, blood was left dripping, fish were allowed a small amount of water to swim in, chickens had they wing dislocated so they wouldn't flap around when they got the chop. Beware, if you're a vegetarian, the FOOD MARKET is a no go.
I too damn frustrated to mention the good things!!!
Secondly, I am damn well pissed off at everything AND I FCKING MEAN EVERYTHING not only am i pissed off, im seriously depressed about something and to make it worse I can do anythign about it, I just bottle it in. I CAN'T and DON'T want to scream and rage it out to my parents cause I'm just going to regret it later, I feel akward just talking about it and I have no idea what to do. I just don't feel like doing anything but when i do nothing i get seriously bored. I mean seriously once I was so bored I started to cry. I don't want to do anything, I just want to relax. Seriously the only places I go are home, restaurant and work. My life is dull, like the weather in England. I hate being depressed and unmotivated. I get so tired and weary all the time. DULL!!!!!!
And thanks to this I am now sleep deprived. If im lucky, I get a max of 6 hours of sleep.
Thirdly, sometimes i really wish i didn't have a sister. Im not going in depth but the choices and things shes does pushes my damn buttons. She act as if she is so superior and wise.
I dont feel like talking anymore and since my parents won't let me go out. Im going to happily watch the clock for the rest of my life.