Well, i've started uni, its not so bad apart from the waking up at 6am in the morning on tuesdays and thursdays, its better than school xD monday and friday off =] and have been driving lately, its still fun, hasn't gotten boring yet ;D eventually it will tho.

yesterday me, darren, hoffman and heywood went to meridian for pool, but me, heywood and hoffman got kicked out cuz we were underage =[ dam bitch had to come up and check ID, when i turn 18, i'm gonna go back there and look for that lady and shove my ID in her face =D

omg, its soo boring now, nothing to do, soo hot as well ==" think i'm gonna take a shower soon and eat, cuz i'm hungry =]

blog more tomorrow =]


nwong.

my life is not perfect. it's so far from perfect that the word 'perfect' should not be associated with my life. it's so, not perfect that 'imperfect' would be an upgraded word to describe my life. my life would be beyond shit.

but that doesn't bother me. at all. =)

cause i have adrian.
and rebecca
and leilei
and jackie
and charlie, nwong, matt, benny, ristov, wilson, mitchell, lawrence, vivien, james, aden

one thing i also know is.
i would not, in a thousand years, in 92364927439264 decades, grow up and become like my mum.
i mean, i love her and all.. but there's just this one thing. one thing that i hate about people. she breaks promises. she abuses your trust. she goes does something, says sorry and expects you to forgive her. you hold a grudge against her and she abuses the love you have of her.
like what the fuck mum. seriously.
aren't you meant to be the one who knows right from wrong?
aren't you like our role model? you know a superior figure whom we can look up to?
all you're teaching us is to lie and lie and lie. and promises arent worth keeping. and trust is there to be broken.
heh.
and why the fuck do i know what's wrong and what's right... i'm siiickkk.
let's go back to china, where daddy can make you all better again.
i think solitude has made you a lil... messed up in the head.
i know this is slack but you've been slacker.
and besides you make me sad. i'm pretty damn sad atm. but blogging is like ♥; giving me a little piece of sanity...
heh. i really do feel sorry for you, i mean... if you never gave birth to me or andy, you could be happily married with daddy. i wouldn't have this to worry about (cause i'd be dead .. wait not alive?) and you wouldn't need the burden of motherhood you always complain about..
yeh. i think i'm regretting my existence.
infact, i regret everything that has made me, me. i regret you ever giving birth to me on april 3rd 1996. i regret doing someshit in your tummy that has made me look like me.
why the fuck was i born?
and i don't really give a fuck if i die.
(omg touch wood! lol)
but ... it's sad cause i've already established relationships with other people. and these people are wonderful people. and i do not, regret them. at all.

so i go complaining, ranting, going in circles. but thats just how it works in my fucked up head. lol. profanity.

btw; i love my mum :)

abc

- After weighing myself in P.E today I feel like a morbidly obese ugly girl
- people judging me, on one simple request I ask them e.g. "dont touch that"
- My sister's wearing my clothing and going through my drawers and stealing again
- Some people are just literally getting me down ( Don't worry, it's not anyone from school)
- Believe that I annoy the people, Im close to and I get paranoid if they don't talk or if there is an akward silence
- Got left out today at sport
- regret everything


I HATE SCHOOL

I DON'T WANT TO GO ANYMORE


I just want to stay home and do nothing
It so hard just to sleep thinking theres school tommorrow

stupid getting sickk..
well right now, i'm listening to korean music; Anyband - Talk Play Love
it's been a loooong time since i last listened to them/the song.. surprised i even remember the words

anyhoo, i wasn't planning to rant on about stuff (well, not that stuff anyways) today.. so let's get back on track =)

WEEE UNCAPPED!!!!! and kinda sad, uni started today =[ but its not that bad ;D
well it was pretty crap, woke up at 6 today omg ==' soo tired and then drove to station to catch the train to macq uni, slept on the train of course (:

and ohhh new car =] Rav4 hehe sexy (:








well, short post cuz i'm tired =[

laters =]

At the age of 13 and a half ish
I am getting incredibly sharp back pains

I feel like a Granny ..>.<

Well I tried studying for the topic test tommorrow but I don't care, I feel like half of my energy withered away along with me dignity,pride, self esteem & confidence xD.
The days go very slowly. I mean every minute, every moment seems so dull.(with exceptions) e.g. Today i sat on the couch for 1 hour just thinking in the midst of the air con LESS THAN THREE ^^V

my back is in pain =S
curse my bad posture .....@.@"""

On the bright side, I can't wait until March 4th BECAUSE
ALICE IN WONDERLAND COMES OUT !!
I absolutely adore Tim Burton. It looks much better than the disney cartoon.
-FANGIRL SQUEL-
Which, on the contrary, means i need to book tickets @ IMAX -pouts-

Okay, I'm going to try and hit the books again
and i didn't mean study wise
hahahhahahhahahaha
Im sooooooo funnnyy...........












no

i love tofu. =)

IMMA GOING TO FCKING RANT MY ASS OFF

I SWEAR I WILL KILL THE BITCHES !!!!!!!!

So if you think I'm overreacting, well beat it cause you probably havent worked 7 hour straight.
Let me set the scene:
Just finished work and another delivery, setting up tables and washing the rest of the dishes. Finallly able to relax after a day of school/work. Suddenly the phone rings, asking if we would do a delivery. It was already past closing time, but I was thinking "If we do this delivery, we might get tips & gain more money". So I was full happy cause after this delivery I could go home and sleep. Once the food was made, all of us hopped into the car, typed the address in the GPS only to find out the house was located at the fcking tip of cronulla. I swear i was going to bitch slap someone.

No, thats not why I'm angry, that one thing thats contributing to my pissed-off-fcking-ness AND I WILL EMPHASISE ON THE PROFANITIES.

Anywasy, once we got to the house, we saw another person there with another food delivery. My mum thought since they were several people living in the house they might order more food. I was like yeah probably. But when we asked the people living there, they were like
"I DIDN'T ORDER ANY FOOD"
and we were like WE GOT A PHONE NUMBER
and they dialled it to find out it was a guy named T., so his mate full start swearing his mouth off at him saying he ordered to much food (this was very funny). But as he was talking, around 2-3 more people came with food deliveries. OMFG DIE IN A HOLE,

We then found out it was a joke

A BLOODY FUCKING SCREWED UP JOKE

In the end we had to go back empty handed and with food that i don't eat. ARGHHHH This cruel joke effected the whole family
Father- rushed to cook food, burnt hand with oil
Mother-Drove all the way and back
The Queen Bitch (Sister) - couldn't stop complaining about her "studies"
Brother - Tired as hell

Im now doing math homework and wishing i could somewhat sleep NOW

Homework is Gay. Anna is Ghey. ;P

School has become an endless cycle of Gheyness. Hmmm... I don't remember when it wasn't ghey but I am sure there was a time. Anyway, it's now...
6:30 Wake up.
7:30 Catch train with Michelle.
8:00 Get to school and finish whatever homework that I couldn't finish.
8:40 School. (Ghey)
12:50 Lunch... Go out to city.
3:00 Do whatever i have to do after school.
7:00 Go home + Do Hwk. (Gay)
12:00 Go to bed.

My friend just said to me, "LIFE SUCKS TOO MUCH GAY COCK TO JUST END IN 2012!"
Couldn't agree more. There are only two things that are moderately good in my life at the moment. Anna and CoD6. Sucks cause one of them is Ghey.

So clearly Ghey and Gay have dominated my life. Always have and always will. I don't really mind but I hope that Uni breaks the mould for me. That's if the world doesn't just end in 2012... Cause that'd be the pinnacle of GAY AND GHEY COMBINED! ><

P.S. Leilei: Welcome to the world. Shit happens.

This time, it's annas rant =)

Well to begin with, today i missed my train. - i sat on the floor in hurstville for 22 minutes alone - -'...
i saw some pretty girls :D there was this blonde girl with shortish hair - OMG SHE LOOKED SO HOT. and there was an oately azn - -'' skinny bitch. the rest were like 'meh',
Everyone got on before my train came so i was loner once again.

i swear, i was super tired on the train >.> and some dude decides to sit close to me - -' ruined my potential sexyyyy sleepeh time. he got off at sutherland (Y) i slept for like wut. 2 minutes because 2 azn dudes who got off at miranda decided to replace the first one. OMG they weren't exactly good smelling >.>

wtf was that? ruin anna's fucking sleeping time? xDD

i got off, and 4 other dudes were late. no one in my year, so i like trudgeeed my way to school.

had to get a late pass and i managed to embarrass myself again; there was this little ant right? and it was on the piece of paper so i started squealing.. office lady gives me the 'wtb are u doing', looks at the ant and comments "oh its just an ant." i lol-ed ... but deep inside i was like "omg u serial? JUST A FUCKING ANT? I FUCKING HATE ANTS YOU PRETTY ........" O.o yes.. embarrassing -.- and even worse because they always recognise, not me or my face but my last name. >.> eg: "Ahhh.. youre the chenfang girl" LOL fuck you. -facepalm-

anyway, went to science and teachers like how did u miss the train? and im like 'i was walking slow mr.' and he gives me the growl~ ahhhh i know he loves me ^-^ we did some random acid + base thing. Stupid Taiga got base on his fingers LOL and we did more balancing equations =) i find them really easy 8D

at recess i was like annoying jackie P: for leaving me earlier in the morning. and then i got bored. and i hugged jackie. and i said hi to peeps.

jap was like awesome, bludgy, got a merit.

then afterwards we had the IST presentation. (Omg, i love my ist class; bec and i are the only girls in it!!! ^-^) we had a pretty cool powerpoint - stayed till 1 two days in a row to finish it --' MHM!

lunch the year 11, some 10 and 9 guys played bball together. i got jackie to stay with meh ^-^ hehehe so he couldnt play XD started poking each other, i punched him liekk 50+ times >< it was so boring. omfg.

english was like... we did robert frost poetry. erm... pattycakes and james killed my page >.> fuck you guys.
JOKES omg lol. rebecca sat like away from me T_T well, away from S. cause she doesnt like him, not much people do.... XD

end of school, on the train.... charlie and rebecca paid me out >.> went home early. cooked andy migoreng. went coles with andy, bought icecream x3x3 and chips.

YUP! THAT WAS MY DAY xx

祝大家，


新年快乐！！


拥有一个幸福、平安、健康、快乐的虎年！

&;

Happy Valentines Day :)

WARNING, this is one of my complaining rants please do not read if:
-can't stand mindless ramblings about how unfair everything is
- dislike imperfect grammar

MOOD - APATHETIC/IMPASSIVE
(I love those words)

Firstly, here i am now back from china and survived a damn well stupid hard ass week of school. School drags on for freaking ages, I swear in class i just watch the clock. THE HECK THATS WHAT I ONLY GET TO DO AT HOME @.@. Sorry sudden realisation of how bored I am (more of this later).
Back on track in China I discovered and experienced a variety of differents things, although not all of them good e.g. Thanks to China's hygiene my skin is all dried and itchy, For all 18 days I was there I had to sleep in the same bed as my sister and everynight there were constant fighting and it was worse when she was unconcious. She slept talk and took all the qulit ( Did I mention it's Winter there). Seriously sometimes I just wanted one of us to jump from our window ( Lived on the 9th storey building with no acess to ELEVATORS try tugging 90kg of luggage down!!). Oh, and Guangzhou has very poor hygiene, I mean disgustingly poor, streets are filled with rubbish and chemicals from factories, Toilets are HORRIFIC, No blue skies & water = dirty muddy water. They kill animals infront of your eyes, although i heard about this, I couldn't cope with the TERRIBLE conditions they were living in. Cages were overfilled, blood was left dripping, fish were allowed a small amount of water to swim in, chickens had they wing dislocated so they wouldn't flap around when they got the chop. Beware, if you're a vegetarian, the FOOD MARKET is a no go.
I too damn frustrated to mention the good things!!!

Secondly, I am damn well pissed off at everything AND I FCKING MEAN EVERYTHING not only am i pissed off, im seriously depressed about something and to make it worse I can do anythign about it, I just bottle it in. I CAN'T and DON'T want to scream and rage it out to my parents cause I'm just going to regret it later, I feel akward just talking about it and I have no idea what to do. I just don't feel like doing anything but when i do nothing i get seriously bored. I mean seriously once I was so bored I started to cry. I don't want to do anything, I just want to relax. Seriously the only places I go are home, restaurant and work. My life is dull, like the weather in England. I hate being depressed and unmotivated. I get so tired and weary all the time. DULL!!!!!!
And thanks to this I am now sleep deprived. If im lucky, I get a max of 6 hours of sleep.

Thirdly, sometimes i really wish i didn't have a sister. Im not going in depth but the choices and things shes does pushes my damn buttons. She act as if she is so superior and wise.

I dont feel like talking anymore and since my parents won't let me go out. Im going to happily watch the clock for the rest of my life.

I am - anna :)
I don’t - do drugs.
I just - wanted to go pee 8D
I can - play the piano.
I cannot - do a cartwheel
I want - long-er hair.
I hate - seafood
I fear - heights and Shrek
I hear - cars on the street, pass-by-ers talking
I search - for a new epicly cool wallpaper
I wonder - what my friends are doing atm.
I regret - stacking it and ruining my knee :(
I love - adrian
I ache - when i choke on water from laughing with bec too much
I always - get distracted
I usually - go on facebook
I am not - skinny enuff
I dance - when no ones around
I sing - to myself, lying on the bed/couch/floor
I never - have broken my bone
I rarely - think about clowns
I cry - and look like a mess
I am not always - 'hypo'
I’m confused - by people
I need - more time.
I dream - of silly things and colourful places
I hope - that... i find out who i am
I feel - like sleeping.
I appreciate - you.

Acquainted with the Night

I have been one acquainted with the night.
I have walked out in rain -- and back in rain.
I have outwalked the furthest city light.

I have looked down the saddest city lane.
I have passed by the watchman on his beat
And dropped my eyes, unwilling to explain.

I have stood still and stopped the sound of feet
When far away an interrupted cry
Came over houses from another street,

But not to call me back or say good-bye;
And further still at an unearthly height,
A luminary clock against the sky

Proclaimed the time was neither wrong nor right.
I have been one acquainted with the night.

Robert Frost

I'm ecstatic! Can't wait! Omg! =)
Love the snow heaps, so can't wait to see tonnes of it on the TV ^-^

But first, i should really do my hwk. Maths, IST 3 page report, History summary of 30 pgs, English analysis on Robert Frost's poems and practice my music solo. Annoying --'
What's worse is that so much is happening this weekend - Valentines day & CNY.
Which means outings, parties, dinners ._. eurgh.....

Besides that, I got a rose today, from lovely Leilei kun~! x3 I saw Adrian's sexy friend - Erica and... ignored a couple of randoms at Hurstville today. I got pretty sunburnt yesterday and I've got piano lesson (yay...) tomorrow. Ahhhh~
Charlies office was so fun! Got to forget about work/school for an hour or so. Now, i`m blogging my lazy ass off. Rofl yay.

This is about it. Ima finish my English thing today. before mum comes home ^-^
xx